Monday, June 7, 2010
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Love ? What on earth actually it is about?
What your definition for it?
It's just too complicated.
I can't trust guy as much as how i used to anymore.
It's just kept making me recalled how bad the damaged was done, even its healed.
The shadow never get away from me.
I know i missed out something in life, due to my bad temper or sudden decision. I'm not regretting. mainly communication and no time for me.
Maybe i don't know how to manage time and give in that time. Out of sudden I just miss that person a lot. There no one to pamper me like princess ever since that day.
Thinking back to those day. Every week at DG, its just like we owned the whole place.
Eyeing on something i love, you will buy.
Craving for foods, bring me to eat.
When i'm broke, give me money to spend.
Bring me out to play.
and many many more......
If you ever happened to read, i'm just wanna let you know. I'm fine. (: one day...... soooon. if you happened to message me i will reply. asking ' how are you? how your parent? ' and etc. i will not avoid you or don't wanna talk to you. I'm sorry, i just don't feel like replying you. Overall, we are still friend no matter what. its just we can no longer like how we used to.
I wanna erased my life since one years + ago about all the happenings. It's too hurtful to even remember it.
I'm always feeling sorry toward him. He is a good guy. Everyone is telling me that. I know, but i just can't accept him. I can't bear myself hurting a person who is so good to me. or should i said way too good in many ways. I just wanna be there for him, to care, to be his listener, to be his super good best friend. What he done for me is way too far. I don't know how to repay him back. I'm not good at words. I speak too frank till i always hurt him without knowing. One day, i'm sure i will make or do something for him. And he the only person i would wanna do make or do. I don't know why too. But i'm sure its gotta be great. Yeah?
Almost eveyone is talking about their love life. How great their boyfriend/girlfriend are.
It's nice to know they are doing great. Happy for them. All i can do is ENVY them.
Because i know somehow i will be hurt again.
Its always best i would said to envy someone then getting our self hurt by someone.
I just felt numb towards l o v e ...
